I’m full of vacant corridors, it’s time to explore all these new places.
leaving this tumblr to be an archive of a past person.
arriving at this new tumblog to walk about with these shaky new legs i seem to have.
what’s not super fun is being diagnosed and treated for bipolar disorder, and the treatment is going really well, but it exposes all of these other issues that were just overshadowed before. i’m starting to really hate the way i sound, like i have a fucking laundry list of disorders. next one to add? apparently some form of obsessive compulsive behavior, which one and six people who are bipolar have.
that means i felt the need to watch pride and prejudice two or three times a day for two weeks, and sometimes i can’t function without listening to the same song over and over again for days, if not more. let’s not even get started on how i won’t let anyone else (and haven’t since i moved out with Lexi 5 years ago) organize or arrange the house or apartment, because i have this weird thing about how things line up. when someone disturbs it, i get upset.
welp, need to figure out how best to manage this…at least i’m recognizing that it’s real for once, instead of just laughing it off as a quirk? i’d still like to consider it a quirk, but i’d also like to not have it interrupt my life.
does anyone have any advice?